From Dreading Workouts To Loving Workouts
This face is more than a face after a good workout session. There's a part of my past that I want to block from my memory forever. You see, someone I cared a lot about (and who I thought cared a lot for me) hurt me. And yes, this happens to a lot of us...I would argue it happens to most people (that's life and it's all a learning experience) but here's the kicker. The one person (one of my dearest best friends at the time - or so I thought) was not there for me when I needed them most. When I was at my very lowest and needed that friendship they were no where to be found. How many of you thought someone was a friend but when times got tough you realized they weren't the friend you thought they were? I know how that feels....it cuts deep and I don't ever wish that on anyone. And I wish I could say that all these years later I don't feel that pain but the truth is I do. Up until that point I had little problems committing to people and trusting people. In fact, I could easily commit to anything and my trust for people was at it's maximum before all of that happened...maybe a bit too much looking back. But that all changed quickly. So, what's changed? How has it changed? And how have I went from spending hours in my bed suffering in silence with all the hurt I felt to who I am today? I started working out. My anger and frustration was taken out at the gym. I would go to the gym later at night to completely exhaust myself so I would sleep at night. As much as I hated working out I did it anyway because it was the one way I knew I could get a good sleep (plus it always made me feel just a bit better). Fast forward a few years and I discovered Beachbody. Hmm...a complete stranger was willing to be my FRIEND and guide me through at home workouts (sounds way too good to be true...must just another network marketing scam, I thought). She was willing to show me how to meal plan and all the things that worked for her. She was someone I could chat with and talk with on the phone...she understood when I told her I wasn't motivated. She shared in my success stories but also helped me through the tough days...and even weeks. She also had a bunch of other ladies she was helping. She introduced me to them and we also bonded. Things were done as a team even if I couldn't participate in everything I was still invited. This was the first time I was really putting trust back into NEW friendships (and people). It started out as a few ladies bonding over workouts and good eats but turned into so much more...it naturally progressed into friendships. About a year ago is when that friendship with these ladies started to grow and continues to blossom. If it wasn't for all that hurt and sadness I felt I'm not sure if I would have ever started working out. After my workouts I always felt better even if it was just for an hour or so...that helped! Without those workout I don't think I would have ever been interested in Beachbody. We make choices every day that lead us down different paths. Choose wisely. I could have EASILY not put in the effort to workout but I did because at the time it was one of the only things in my every day life that was helping me. This face is hope and happiness. Hope for any of you reading this who have felt the type of pain that I have felt in my past. Happiness for any of you reading this who have also overcome that type of pain. You are stronger than you think. I promise you girl, you will find your people who will care for you more than you ever imagined. I'm always a message away and a helpful hand if you need one...I refuse to ever turn my back on someone. <3
