Progress Not Perfection
I get home from work a bit earlier than Jeff...and I can slip into some dark bad habits. In our house, we try and keep nutritious food in the house and the not so nutritious food out of our house. It's something that helps me especially since I've struggled a lot with emotional binge eating in the past. Read more about that here. Having said that, I live with a guy who does still enjoy his granola bars (and other sugary treats) once in a while. Believe it or not, these snacks are a huge step into his eating better habits and he has come a long way from where he was...something that I am very proud of for him.
I always tell Jeff to take these treats of his to work since that's usually where he eats them anyway. Well, these were in the house since the weekend and half way through the week I broke down and finished them off (there was 2 in each box...which might not seem like a lot to you but it's the fact that I binged them and they were gone in 5 seconds). I use to consume many boxes of these in one sitting and today I reminded myself that even though I've come a long way I still have work to do to continue building a healthier relationship with food. I can tell you this. I do not feel one ounce of guilt. I did it. I enjoyed the taste (some people don't like going back to their old favs once they start eating well but I'm not one of those people). But most importantly I recognized what was happening and remembered how to take control of the situation instead of continuing to fuel the situation. Finding a healthy relationship with food continues to be one of the harder things I've done for myself in my life. BUT it's also been one of the most rewarding. I only recently was able to share with you the issues I've had in the past (and the issues I still face every day). I thought about not sharing it at all but then I remembered my past self and my past self would have really wanted and needed someone who was struggling with the same issue to share their story. It's OKAY to have set backs. Expect it to happen. None of us are perfect. We just pick ourselves up, brush ourselves off and continue going! :) Find your inner strength.
